December 1st

Well today is December 1st ..

I guess you could say that there are many things to be looking forward to!

There are 24 days left until Christmas and for the first time in a few years I am actually excited ..

I hate that Christmas has become all about the best gifts and spending all the money

you have on crap.  It should be about spending the day with the ones you love and celebrating the season. 

(kelseybang.blogspot)

We are getting closer and closer to getting our first home and we are overly excited. 

 Ok well overly excited around each other.

I try not to be so excited when speaking to others quiet yet due to the fact

there is still a chance we wont get the place

and I hate to have been so excited publicly and then .. it fall threw the drain.

But I'm still staying positive!

Were spending our first weekend of this wonderful month taking our Christmas card pictures ..

oh yes that is right I said it ..

for the first time in awhile I am not ahead of the game

and we are just now getting pictures.

Therefore we will race home to make our cards so they will be ready to mail next week

I don't have anxiety yet .. check back Saturday around 5!

 

Hopefully were getting our tree this weekend!

Decorating the tree and the house

has always been my favorite part of December/Christmas ..

 It always brings back memories of growing up and I just love the smell ..

I want to start a tradition with Steven and I

 that we will be able to do with our children one day ..

I have not put much thought into the day we get the tree

and when we decorate and what food we would eat ..

yes I think about things a little too much

but hey

I love traditions!

       (Great Rule!)                                                                                                (Us in front of the tree Christmas 2010)

                                           

Happy Thursday everyone :)                 

Being Thankful and a little bit of rambling!

So I know that Thanksgiving was last week but between busy work days and getting ready to travel I haven't had one extra moment to write.  But this post is about what I am thankful for and sort of a moment of realization.

Well I am very grateful for my family and my lovely extended family and my friends.  Thanksgiving was amazing we got to see family that we don't get to see enough!

 Ok so thinking about Thanksgiving and spending time with family got me thinking about this ..

Everyone tells you when you're growing up that you will find out who your true friends are and that is very true.  You really notice once you're out of high school, some go to college some choose to stay in their ways and well the ones here in Elk Grove choose to still do drugs and not grow up.  But we have noticed that still at 23-24 you're finding new friends and losing old ones cause were buying a house and well doing grown up things and some are still living at home mooching of their parents.

But I'm thankful to have bills to pay and be grown up!

So anyways the reason for this realization and long post ..

I've ALWAYS knew that you will find out who your true friends are

but I NEVER thought that I would find out who my "true family" was.

With that I mean, family is suppose to be the most important thing in life but I have noticed that some of my family doesn't think that way I guess.  It is hard to get past the fact that someone who is suppose to be so important in your life, such a big influence and someone who should be around when you have children just plan old wont be there.

Being 24 I feel that I should just accept the fact that well, my father does not want to be involved in my life.  Yes we are both busy with our own lives, work, spouses and so fourth, however being his only daughter I would think he would want to be around a little more. 

All I think about is the fact that I will be getting married soon and would love to have him there.  I have to think about the children I will have and if I want to have a grandparent who comes in and out of their life, something that, I'm use to.  That is not easy to say and its not something I want to say.  I pray a lot and remind Steven all the time that I hope he is a better father to our children and is always there because a father is a very important figure as well as a mother but I know what it is like to not have a father who is there ever night to tuck you in to bed, help you with homework and just all that good stuff they should be there for.

For those who  know me I have had a step-father in my life for many many years and I do love him and glad he is there for my mother however it is not the same.  A little girl wants their father to be around for all the amazing things she gets to experience and yes some girls are not as lucky to have even one man in her life and many would say that I shouldn't complain but be thankful and yes I am thankful but still wish to make some sense of this and move forward with my life!

Look at me I am rambling on .. I don't even know if any of this makes sense but I needed to get it out..

Well here is to my family .. I love you all and am so thankful to have you in my life ..

and thank you Steven for being so supportive of me and standing by me when things get rough and to one day soon giving me a family of our own :)

Things I enjoy and am grateful for

A girl should always have a cute fall nail polish and some brow tech too!

Fall <3

Making healthy breakfast and baking up new creations

   

My sweet little baby boy Tank 

(a dog is a good baby for now!)

  

But most of all this man!

Just a Thought

Life gets crazy and we sort of lose who we are and where we are in life.

I believe we need to step back everyday to remember those we love and most of all ourselves!

In the last two years many things have happened ..

good and bad ..

But there is nothing I would change about it.

We have grow together as one

and planned a future together!

He is the one I wake up for every morning,

and fall asleep next to every night!

He truly is the only man I love ..

and will love!

We are not perfect, nor would I want perfect

but he makes me happy and who I am.

I need to remember more why I fell in love with him

and that he is the only one who makes me like this.

I hope this house goes through soon so that we are able to get back to enjoying life

and being able to do more things. *no more pennie pinching*

We need a vacation and a real one at that ..

I love the Ranch but I need some where new a place to create a few more memories for my file :)

Well  I must go for now, he is bringing me dinner

*I'm sick so it's his turn!*

Happy Tuesday :)

Not a good time for this ..

So I need to get out my frustration .. if you don't like bad language I suggest you stop reading here cause I'm not planning on holding back right now!

So I was so happy that everything with the house is finally coming together .. a little slower than I would like but hey at least it was working out!

Until ..

Yesterday we took the car in because the lovely noise it was making was getting worse.  

I was trying to stay positive and note expect the worst (shouldn't have done that) .. 

We need a new transmission and something else so pretty much the cheapest it would cost us to fix it would be about $3,300.  

What the fuck this is a joke right? .. Nope

So first there goes our commuter car we were hoping to have and here comes a big problem.

We got over the shock of it and moved onto looking for a car .. since we plan to have children in a few years we are just going for the SUV now ..

Oh but wait .. now were told we should not apply for an auto loan any time soon because it will ruin the chance of us getting our home loan ..

So NOW we have to wait to get a new car pretty much until the bank has dotted it's I's and crossed it's T's with our loan ..

God damn it is all I can say .. we cannot live with just one car for another 3-6 months.

I honestly want to have a nervous brake down right now ..

I know everything happens for a reason and I was just fine with having a car and house payment at the same time but now we have to wait potentially 6 months before getting another car .. umm well sorry who ever the hell is in charge up there but that isn't going to work.

So I'm going to try to keep positive and hope that nothing else really goes wrong and things start to fall back into place.

love you Steven for keeping me sane 

Pillow Project

So before I decide to go all out and paint a wall, I'm making pillows to practice!

Slowly they're coming along ..

So here is my first step, tracing the template, took FOREVER!

Second step two: begin painting!

(this was tricky because there is no real line to follow. 

 you're actually paining in the middle of each shape it was called double lines.)

Finished one side of the pillow, and I love it!

Now I just need to finish painting the other side and sew them together!

I will add the finished pictures as soon as I am done ..

Here is to a new chapter

It is the month of September and well school has started back up for everyone but yours truly.  Yes that is right I am not attending college this semester and well, mostly because I have NO idea what it is I feel like spending the rest of my life doing, besides being a wife and mother.  I seem to hear a lot of grief about not going to school and blah blah blah.  But this is what I have to say: I believe in myself that I can do great things for not only me but for my family.  I have and will continue to make the right choices as they come into my life and follow down the path that I feel is right.  So thank you for your comments but this is OUR (mine and Steven's) life and we know what were doing :)


So as for now, my plan is to get back into decorating and reading some good books!

My Project list:


1. Reupholster my free chair I picked up from down the street

2. Painted Wallpaper in one of the rooms of the house-(guest bedroom or bathroom, kitchen or living room?)

3. Pallet bookshelves

4. New night stands and lights for master bedroom

and of course enjoy my life with Steven and planning our future together!  :)

Look back for project updates!
Happy Tuesday everyone ..

"LESSONS FORGED from the PURPOSE, PASSION, and MAGIC of BASEBALL".

So my girlfriend was telling me about a book that she is in love with .. She is constantly posting quotes from it and I can't help but be inspired by the words from this man I have never met. So I decided to buy and read this book!!

Augie Garrido is "the winningest coach in NCAA Division 1 history! Life Is Yours to Win is said to appeal to anyone who appreciates the wisdom of a proven winner in sports and in life.

I plan to read every inch of this book and plan to keep you guys up on it as I go! Cross your fingers! I'm excited :)

Adventures of House Hunting

About a month ago we decided to take one of the biggest steps to creating a great future together, buy a home!  

We got approved for our loan and now it's time to look for the perfect house!  It is amazing to think that at our age we're able to purchase a home, somewhere we can raise our family and grow old in together.  It was so much work just to get approved, they want so much information it is crazy.  But as I kept telling Steven if they want you to give a urine sample do it!  We would do anything to be able to buy a house!!  Right now we are at the point where it's all down to patients.  :(  I do not really have patients but I will however, try my hardest for this because we have certain things on our list that need to be met and if that means we have to wait a year to get into the perfect home for us, then that means we have to wait a year.   

I constantly look every day on the web to see if there are any new homes, seems to be the same every time.  We have found a few we love and of course just our luck an offer has already been out on them!  But I think that just means that a house much better will come along :)

I am very blessed to have Steven in my life and be in a place where we can afford to do all these amazing things together and continue on this road to making a great life for one another and for our children one day.

Well that's it for now, Ill post again soon as more happens!

Auf ewig in unseren Herzen -forever in our hearts

We often find out the hard way that life is too short.  We should never take the precious moments we have with the ones we love for granite, because we never know when they'll be taken away. 
Growing up you think not only you but everyone you love is invinsible.  As you get older and begin to understand more about life and how it works, that  perseption will change.  You see people get sick, get in accidents, or want to stop the pain and be taken by god to a better place.  We must learn not to be selfish, wishing they could remain here with us and understand that they are in gods hands and no longer in pain.  However the amazing part is they forever stay in our hearts and watch over us as we grow. 

You never know when it can happen, when someone you love so dear, who inspires you to do great things, encourages you to be a better person and who has cheered you on in every step in your life, is taken from us and put in gods hands. 


So enjoy every moment that comes into our lives and take every opportunity that is given to us and run with it.  Love harder than ever before, laugh till you cry, smile it's contagious, and regret nothing.

For those we've lost -
"God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be.  So he put his arms around you and whispered "come with me".  With tearful eyes we watched and saw you pass away.  Although we loved you dearly we know you couldn't stay.  A golden heart stopped beating and hard working hands at rest.  God broke our hearts to prove to us he only takes the best!" -Unknown

Grandpa Carl, Grandma Beverly, Grandma Eleanor, Grandpa Emil, Grandma Joy, Michael, Shannon

Adventures at the vet

Who's not a big dog anymore?!

Tank's first visit to the vet and perhaps his last! He was so scared he never moved once, pretty sure he doesn't trust me any more! Sort of don't blame him although his rabies shot wasn't bad his microchip needle was about the size of his leg (ok a little over exaggerated) and it made him bleed for about 10 minutes.

Mental note- little dogs scare easily even when they think they're the same size as a lab and Queensland Heeler!

Mommy still loves you boo-boo!

-welcome-

I have always wanted to blog mostly just to keep my thoughts some where other than jumbled up in my brain for chance of losing or digging around for hours look for!  But to also inspire others, insure others they are not alone and who knows maybe help someone down the road.

So where to begin is the question .. I guess I'll talk a little about me and where I'm at in this crazy world!

I am newly 24 and so excited for the adventures in front of me.  I have the most AMAZING family in the whole world (which also include my "in-laws").  I have never had a bigger support system and people who encourage-push me to follow every dream I have.  I wouldn't trade any of them because if it were not for them I would not be in the place or the person that I am today.  -Thank you to my whole family (even the ones not pictured) I love you all

I am LUCKY to the the most AMAZING man in my life who loves and supports me more than I could ever dream of.  We are creating the best life for each other and look forward to every new step along the way that we get to encounter together for the rest of our lives. :)  -Love you Steven

I have the best friends you could ever ask for and I thank god every day that through the tough times they have all stuck with me and I know that no matter what they're always going to be there.  I wish our lives weren't so crazy so we could spend more time together, but I know as life takes its path and as we discover more about ourselves we will be closer than ever before. -I love my girls :)

I have a fantastic job and the greatest bosses a person could ever ask for .. seriously!  I am very thankful to have this job and know these people!

If it were not for all these amazing people who have been in my life, the ones that I'm still lucky to have and the ones who will never be forgotten but who are now with the lord, they all have a special place in my heart and life.  I am so thankful for the love, support and wisdom they have all instilled into me.

The last year has definitely been a whirlwind but in a great way.  Through the hard times that come our way so many more great opportunities have come from them.  This is the time to enjoy everything that comes to us and take every opportunity and run with it!

Well for now this is all but much more to come.

"enjoy every day as it comes and do your best at everything you do and everything you want will come to you when you are ready!"