So I know that Thanksgiving was last week but between busy work days and getting ready to travel I haven't had one extra moment to write. But this post is about what I am thankful for and sort of a moment of realization.
Well I am very grateful for my family and my lovely extended family and my friends. Thanksgiving was amazing we got to see family that we don't get to see enough!
Ok so thinking about Thanksgiving and spending time with family got me thinking about this ..
Everyone tells you when you're growing up that you will find out who your true friends are and that is very true. You really notice once you're out of high school, some go to college some choose to stay in their ways and well the ones here in Elk Grove choose to still do drugs and not grow up. But we have noticed that still at 23-24 you're finding new friends and losing old ones cause were buying a house and well doing grown up things and some are still living at home mooching of their parents.
But I'm thankful to have bills to pay and be grown up!
So anyways the reason for this realization and long post ..
I've ALWAYS knew that you will find out who your true friends are
but I NEVER thought that I would find out who my "true family" was.
With that I mean, family is suppose to be the most important thing in life but I have noticed that some of my family doesn't think that way I guess. It is hard to get past the fact that someone who is suppose to be so important in your life, such a big influence and someone who should be around when you have children just plan old wont be there.
Being 24 I feel that I should just accept the fact that well, my father does not want to be involved in my life. Yes we are both busy with our own lives, work, spouses and so fourth, however being his only daughter I would think he would want to be around a little more.
All I think about is the fact that I will be getting married soon and would love to have him there. I have to think about the children I will have and if I want to have a grandparent who comes in and out of their life, something that, I'm use to. That is not easy to say and its not something I want to say. I pray a lot and remind Steven all the time that I hope he is a better father to our children and is always there because a father is a very important figure as well as a mother but I know what it is like to not have a father who is there ever night to tuck you in to bed, help you with homework and just all that good stuff they should be there for.
For those who know me I have had a step-father in my life for many many years and I do love him and glad he is there for my mother however it is not the same. A little girl wants their father to be around for all the amazing things she gets to experience and yes some girls are not as lucky to have even one man in her life and many would say that I shouldn't complain but be thankful and yes I am thankful but still wish to make some sense of this and move forward with my life!
Look at me I am rambling on .. I don't even know if any of this makes sense but I needed to get it out..
Well here is to my family .. I love you all and am so thankful to have you in my life ..
and thank you Steven for being so supportive of me and standing by me when things get rough and to one day soon giving me a family of our own :)
