Christmas in Hawaii

Looks like this Christmas we will be spending it in Hawaii with my boss and their family!

I'm looking forward to it .. in a way.

There is a slight chance Steven will not be able to join and honestly if he doesn't I'm not so sure I can bare going there with out him and spending Christmas alone.

Disney Hotel

this will be our home for one week 

Id take it only if I can have my man with me.

This place is beyond beautiful AMAZING!

Hotel's Beach

It will be an adventure as we will have all 4 kids with us so I'm not sure how much alone or "adult" time we will get but I know if Steven comes we will have a blast.

I can just see us walking along the beaches, exploring a land so new to us that might make us never want to leave :)  So many possibilities of great adventure

I get very excited to think about the "Christmas" we will have in Hawaii and honestly until we have kids I think its the best way to spend Christmas.  Never been to fond of the holiday, many people have forgotten the real meaning of Christmas and think its all about the presents. 

So we will see what happens in the next few months and hopefully you will be seeing pictures of the fun we had and mine and Steven's first real vacation together!

Love or wifely duties?

What do you ladies do for you man/husband every day?

My every day..

work out
shower

make coffee/tea

make lunch

make breakfast

run off to work for 10 hours 

come home

make dinner

light cleaning

laundry

go to bed

for over three years now I have played the wife role without even being the wife.

some days it's tiring but I wouldn't trade it for anything else.

I hear many guys talk about how there are not woman out there that do these things for their man.  Some times I just cannot understand why not.

Not only do I get satisfaction that I can take care of my family but he loves that he gets a home cooked meal every night and a delicious lunch to take to work!  I'm pretty sure he is the only one of his friends that wife does this for them! 

*excuse me while I pat myself on the back, because yes, Yes I do deserve it!*

So men there are still some woman out there that take care of there men like they should!

I wasn't raised this way, no one every told me the woman's role is in the home to cook, clean and raise children but I have always believed this!

Will it ever get easier?

I try my hardest to be positive .. these days I feel like its a joke

Money isn't everything .. you cannot take it or the material things with you when you die.  

We don't want to be rich but we would like to be comfortable. 

Lately I feel like ..

we cannot catch a break.

The batterie in the truck dies .. $100

Credit Card has to be paid off next month .. $1000

Down stairs toilet breaks .. $100

Personal expenses due to horrible insurance .. $800

Transmission in the car .. $1000

I love my life with Steven I wouldn't ask to change it, just some days I wish it were easier or I knew how to deal with it better.

Im 25, aren't I suppose to be enjoying life right now?

Excuse me while I step outside and scream 

FALL AUTUMN which ever you want to call it

So as summer is coming to an end

I am both sad and ecstatic!

Fall is my favorite time of year! There are so many wonderful decorations, fun activities and delicious food to indulge in and most of all super cute clothes!

How could you not love Autumn when this is what comes with it 

[Breathtaking]

So I'll share some of the beautiful decorations that I hope to make and buy to decorate our home for its first Fall Holidays!

[Tacky Pumpkins]

[Fall Wreath]

[Pumpkin Carving Party]

Pretty sure these ladies dress scarfs and boots are AMAZING! 

[Scarfs and Dresses]

 How could you not want this beautiful thing on your porch?!

[Monogrammed Pumpkin]

Our Story

So Ive been meaning to share how the Mr and I met.  It has been hard deciding what to put in and what not but then I remember when I decided to start this blog I was going to be up front and honest and not hide anything.  This might be a rambling post but Ill try not!

Back in 2005 I met Steven, at the time he had just started dating my "best friend".  I put that in quotes because I was always a better friend to her than she ever was to me! Any ways when she introduced us I knew from that moment that he was way to good for her.  She had a bad rep with guys she dated in the past; cheating, lying blah blah blah and I knew he was a good cowboy.  Anyways I stopped talking to her that October and we never spoke again.  Ill keep this short because it is about Steven and I not her even though with out her bad little self I probably never would have met him.

Jump forward 4 years and a few blind dates later ..

A friend of mine text me out of the blue July 14, 2009 (Steven's 21st birthday).. "Hey you will never guess who I am hanging out with."  I of course had to think for a moment because she is 3 years younger than me, I had no idea who she might be hanging out with.  I asked "Who?" and she said "Steven, Marissa's ex."(I never call her by her name)  I said "oh they are not together? Give him my number and tell him to call me sometime." She said "Ok" and that was that.  Never heard from him.  About a week later she text me saying she was with him again so I told her the same thing "give him my number and hit a girl up sometime!"  Hahaha yes I actually said that .. but it worked because he started texting me right then.  We talked for over 3 hours catching up.  Then he said the next night (Friday) that him and some friends were going to the local bar and that i should come hang out.  So of course I said yes, but I was going to dinner with my girlfriend then I would come out after.

When I got to the bar that night I called and told him I was there and he said he would come meet me outside.  In my mind I was thinking this would never go past being friends because of the awkward way that we knew each other.  But for some reason my stomach was filled with butterflies, I had no friend to lean on and make me laugh.  I walked up to the entrance staring at the ground (so I wouldn't trip) and having to give myself a pep talk because I was so nervous! Well I looked up and there he was with a huge smile on his face!  All my nerves just went away and I couldn't stop smiling.  I guess deep down I really wanted to be more than just friends.  He is the sweetest gentleman in the world and I guess it helps that he's good looking!

Well I met all his friends that night who were all sweet as could be (Thank you lord)!  He came to the bar with a few of them and they were getting ready to leave I guess he was having a good time with me because he asked if I was going to stay longer and if so if I minded taking him to his tuck later that night.  I said of course because I was having such a great time and didn't want the night to be over so soon!  We stayed at the bar till it closed (2am) and we talked the whole ride to where his truck was!

We hugged and said good night and he would call me the next day.

Well obviously he did and we hung out every day after that.  In September we went to a fundraiser dinner for his moms drill team and when we were working the ticket table he passed me a note.  It said "Will you go out with me check yes or no" and it even had the little boxes to check and of course I said yes.  I knew then I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.  I don't think he felt the same way but I didn't care.  That was the sweetest thing any one has ever done for me and some might laugh because we were 21 and 22 at the time and that's stuff kids in high school do but you know what I  love every minute of it!

It has been 3 years since that meeting and I couldn't ask for a better guy to be sharing my life with.  I will not say our life is perfect I don't think "perfect" exists but it is our version of perfect and we wouldn't change it for a thing.  Life isn't easy and we have sure been through our ups and downs but that is what true love is to me and I wouldn't want to deal with life with any one else by my side then him.

He makes me cry, smile, laugh and dream of things I never thought were possible!

I love you Steven Marcus <3

I hope that wasn't too rambly (yes i just made that a word!)